At my wits' ends, I had reading from professional to see what I'm not seeing or understanding. It was helpful but I was still confused. The reader told me it was something, some painful truth that I wasn't dealing with. What truth? If I'm exploring my spirituality on my own, I thought I was very opened already. I just couldn't get it. And still, this card stalked me.
One day, I posted my question on Aeclectic forum. A nice person, Lindsey, was kind enough to go look for the picture of the deck I used. Then she suggested a very simple idea that sparked my epiphany moment. Conflict of beliefs. Great news: For InnerDaydreams' audience, Lindsey is offering 15% off coupon for her tarot readings. Like my page on facebook to get the code! Go check her out here
I suddenly realized that I have been avoiding addressing my belief. I believe in science, in evolution, in factual evidences. Heck, my career is based on science. I love it. I love science and it makes perfect sense to me. However, at the same time, I believe in spirituality, in miracles, in something that science can't prove or it doesn't seem to make sense or appear to have a working principle. So what do I believe?
I examined my beliefs closely. My epiphany moment was the realization that it was okay for me to have both beliefs. It is my personal path. I believe everyone has several aspects in their life: emotional, mental, physical, intellectual, and spiritual. For me, it's simply two parallel parts of me that I didn't think it could blend. But it actually can. It doesn't conflict each other. One doesn't disprove the other.
Spirituality gives me inner strength and motivation to go after my dreams and my heart's desire. Science is how I understand the world and how many changes in reality would be made for the better life. Think about that! All technological advances ever made was from trials and working scientific principles but their creators did the work would still be spiritual and believed in something great in themselves, in their dreams and their callings. For example, Gregor Mendel was a Catholic monk in 1800 and did genetics research all his life. His work had set a foundation for genetics today.
Although church nowadays doesn't seem to support science like back then, many spiritual people are scientists and there is absolutely no conflict about that. I don't have to choose whether I believe in logic or magic. They both exist at the same time in different ways. So I decided to be a scientific woman (meaning with logical and critical thinking) that believes in miracles. Again, it goes along with a Buddhist belief. Questions are encouraged and miracles happen every day, we just don't realize it. With that realization, I found my inner peace and the card stopped stalking me.
Here's the video that explains extremely well my point. (I love Neil Degrasse Tyson's talking!)
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